those feelings died down for a while. i didn't feel anything more than friendship during the past few weeks. but today...
i couldn't help but feel pathetic. i feel like such an idiot. why do i feel envious? why am i getting jealous because she gets to hold your hand?
when i held your hand, it was so warm and it made me feel safe.
i was skating around by myself and i saw you holding hands with her. my chest tightened when i saw you reach out for her hands, cluthing them like they meant to world to you.
then i noticed. why am i so stupid? why do i feel like this? i knew you guys were just friends, but this feeling of jealousy was the only thing going through my mind at that moment.
on the way to the ice skating rink, you were linking arms with her. i did feel jealous. i did want to link arms with you as well. but i hid that feeling, because i really don't want to feel this way.
it's painful to think that those feelings for you havn't disappeared. that you still hold that place in my heart. that i'm still blogging about these depressing thoughts.
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