Ugh , i hate this feeling that im having right now .
Knowing that you pretty much hate me makes me feel really shit .
I just feel like an idiot , i just cant seem to get you out of my head . I know im creeping you out and your annoyed at me but i really cant help it .

I kinda wish the feeling of love never existed .
If it hadnt  , i wouldnt have these kind of feelings right now .

I hate myself for feeling this way .
I hate myself for thinking about you in that way .
I hate myself for making you feel uncomfortable .

Im stressing myself out too much . I have three yearlies next week and i really need to study .
To make it twenty times worse , i have Duke of Ed camp next Friday and i dont think i can do it , especially if im gonna carry a 10kg backpack and hike 24km .

Just kill me why dont you ?

// shit my posts are getting more and more depressing .