If I sound like a bitch in this post, it's because I am. Hahah, my true nature is coming out. I'm feeling so snappy and bitchy today.
The reason why I disliked it was that I discovered something about me and my friends that made me feel like shit. I had a heart to heart with Kelly. We talked about our lives, our problems and our emotions. I found out why she was hurting. I think life is really unfair.
And Joyce, you are fucking amazing. You are so strong and brave for feeling like that. I wish I could say "As long as she's happy." But I can't. I really can't. I feel like such a selfish bitch. I'm only caring about my feelings.
I was so close to cutting myself today. The knife was at my wrist. But I'm scared of pain. I didn't want to hurt myself. I don't know.
Thanks to:
- Mary for talking to me at the station today. I know you're hurting too and it means the world to me when you tell me not to hurt myself.
- Alex for helping me with maths tutor homework and making life a tiny bit easier.
- Kevin for drawing a picture for me to cheer me up. He's uploading it for me to see tmrw. C:
- Ryan for cheering me up. Love.
- Natalee.
- Taff.
- Widarma.
- Samira.
- Jewel.
- Teresa.
- Elizabeth.
- Victoria.
- Denise mummy.
- Lisa.
- Kim.
I love you all. ♥ Thanks for messaging/commenting on various posts and showing your love. ♥
I'm so lucky to have such supportive and caring friends. (Unlike my family... >__>)
(comes back from Physics tutor and dinner.)
Ok. I'm feeling a lot better now. Don't need to worry guys. Talked to her about it today and sorted some things out.
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