(olympic park fountains.)

i don't know what to do. i don't even know if i can do anything. if what my friend told me was true, i'm really disppointed, in both myself and you. i really didn't expect you to tell everyone. i don't know what they think of me now. i don't know what i should do. i don't know if i can talk to you normally. i don't know how to face you.

why doesn't it ever work out for me ?
i feel like such an idiot for falling for you. it's so frustrating.

all the things you said and did to me, i noticed that it was nothing special even though it was special to me. i was just overthinking your actions and once again it has come back to me in the form of disappointment. i don't even feel like crying, i feel like burying my face into my pillow and disappearing.

i don't know what i'm going to do.

i'm sorry for the depressing post. despite having a wonderful day, i'm not in the mood to talk about it. so i'll blog about it later. in the meantime, i'm going to attempt to get some sleep.

fuck everything.